Following:Afternoon Snooze Button
i am only 22. i have to keep reminding myself of that …
i am getting ahead of myself.
i find myself wanting that ring and white dress.
i find myself wanting that belly and a baby.
and normally one at my age might be thinking about the next weekend.
i can’t. i don’t know why i have this mentality that i am running out of time.
and i should be saying that i have all the time in the world.
i know that i was put here to be a mom. to be a wife. to make my husband happy. i want that life.
i was brought into a life that taught me to chase my happiness, i just have to remember that there is a step before reaching that ultimate goal.
4 more years. 4 more years at the very least.
i feel like i am being selfish. like i am going crazy. like i am being impatient. like i am forgetting about all the things that come before.
i am just ranting on, because i cannot sleep.
it is hitting me that you are going to be leaving. for an entire year.
and you are going to be starting another chapter in your life that i will not be there for. i just wish i could start that chapter with you too.
i just wish i could be there.
Jamie Lynn Spears | How Could I Want More
This song makes me emotional.
my favorite verse.
it is hitting me that my life is going to REALLY start in the next couple of years. and i really need to buckle down and get serious and stop dreaming.
i am so proud of my amazing boyfriend. he has worked harder than anyone that i know to make sure that he is at the top. he is willing to let me be a stay at home mom, which is what i believe that i am meant to do. he works hard not only for himself, but for me too.
he is going to be getting his PhD for free. by the age of 26. he will have his own business, a PhD, and no debt. how many people can say that? he doesn’t care how much debt in student loans that i have, he says he will help. he has such passion for everything that he does, including the love that he has for me. i can say that i am one of the luckiest girls in the world, i found that boy who would give me everything. and that is so amazing.
he is truly my prince. and any girl would be lucky to have hum, but he chooses to stay right by my side.
i love you Jon :)
Love this song.
when you are around sadness and unfortunate things, you really learn how to appreciate your own life.
i am so thankful for the life that i have.
i am hurting for those in my life who have lost a loved one or who are facing loss in their families.
i pray that the Lord be with them during this difficult time in their lives. help them to find answers. show them that those who have passed have found peace in Heaven. help them to see your guidance and light in such a dark place.
i haven’t been thanking God like i should be.
i have been provided with so many great opportunities. i am still healthy and living. and i have people in my life who would jump to help me.
i am so thankful.